i’m so depressed right now. i don’t like where i’m living, the weather has been for months and months cold, gray and rainy, i don’t know what i want to do for work and the jobs i have gotten i just don’t like. i’m not inclined anymore to force myself to go to a job that doesn’t fulfill me in any positive way. i’m lost, rudderless, regretting i ever came here. my mind is so scattered it is hard to think clearly about anything. how do you make life decisions when you can’t even decide on what you want to eat on any given day?
i feel confused, abandoned by whatever force it is that runs the universe, utterly alone.